No supervision necessary.

I called John a few days ago to ask if Sunday would be a good day for me to bring the boys up, because they've been asking me to bring them.  So he agreed to Sunday and the boys were excited.

I woke up around 6am today to the sound of my cell phone's reminder beep that I had a message waiting for me.  I opened it up, and sure enough, it was a cancellation from John.  Great.  So I spent the next hour tossing and turning in bed thinking about how the conversation would go when I had to break the news to them that we were not going to visit their dad. 

J woke up around 7, I turned on the tv and we watched Spongebob together.  R woke up about 40 minutes later.  The second J realized that R was up he jumped on him and said, "Hey RRRRR, we're going to daddy's house todaaaaaay!"  

<<SIGH>> "Um, guys, I got a message from daddy today that we can't visit him because he's too sick to have visitors today."    J's face dropped.  "oh. ok Mommy. . . Can we send him a get well soon card on your computer?!"  ug. "Of course, Baby."

Amazing.  At the age of 4, my son is a better man than his 44 year old father.  Despite his obvious disappointment, his first concern was to comfort his father.  

I try not to even bother speculating on why he does the things he does.  Because there's no way to ever really know.  Generally, if his mouth is moving, he's lying.  But of course, the mind wanders.  Mine, in particular, since I feel the need to over analyze everything.  So I figure there's a few possibilities:
1. He still hasn't gotten them any Christmas gifts, so he's continuing to bide his time.
2. He got hammered last night and was too hung over to tolerate kids.
3. He realized that it's football playoffs and he'd rather be a part of that.
4. A combination of all of the above.

A big part of me was relieved about the cancellation, because I hate being there to supervise the visits.  A bigger part of me was heartbroken for the boys.  They have no idea that there are SO many trivial things in their father's world that he will ALWAYS put before them.  Himself, above all.

Fucking deadbeat loser.