He's just not that into me...

Well, my crush has put a stop on the thing that never really started.  I sent him a message last night to ask if he thought anything was happening between us.  I told him that I liked him, and that I just wanted to know if he thought there was any future for us, or if I was just wasting my time.  I definitely reach out to him, more than the other way around, so I was pretty sure of what my answer would be.

And I was right.  He answered that at his age (he is a few years older than me), he didn't want to get too involved with someone that has such young children. 

That was his way of letting me down gently.  I'm sure that the kids were a part of the decision... maybe even the biggest part of the decision.  But the fact of the matter is, when someone is REALLY interested in someone else, I think they figure out a way.  If they're just not THAT into you, then the details matter more.

So that's that.  He's just not that into me.  I'm bummed about it.  I like him, and I liked the way I felt when I was with him.   He is nice, and handsome, and just good to be around.   This is uncharted territory for me.  I'm not used to rejection.  Not to sound like a jerk, but in my past, I wasn't rejected.  If and when I showed interest in someone, I got what I wanted.  I was never really rejected and never broken up with.  So I'm not really sure about this feeling that I'm feeling today.   It's not a good feeling.  It's disappointment rolled into a feeling of powerlessness, I guess?    Either way, it's not my favorite.