Well, my plans fell through last night. The guy that was supposed to meet with me didn't come. He had a long drive, around 1 1/2 hours to get here.. which got tough with the crazy rain we had all day and night. It's a little blow to the ego. If I hadn't been driving around all day in that crazy weather, I think it would have stung a little more, but it really was bad out there... so I took his word for it.
With that said, I still went out. I went to a Japanese restaurant in town. I wasn't about to waste a perfectly good night out when I had my parents watching the boys, and I had already gone through the trouble of blowing out my hair and putting on make up. So I headed out, solo, which is actually one of my favorite things to do. I had some truly amazing food, a couple of glasses of wine, and made friends with the bartender, who happens to be a writer as well as a bartender. We exchanged numbers and blog addresses and I headed home.
During my dinner, the no-show and I exchanged a bunch of fun texts and tried to carry on as though he were there, which was fun and entertaining. I'm not sure I understand him too much yet... I'm not used to being the aggressor.. Don't get me wrong, when I see something I want (or someone, as it may be), I go for it. But normally, once I make the initial move, I can step back and let the guy take the lead.. Not so in this case. He's extremely nonchalant about my flirtations. He is receptive, but not to the point of taking the lead to move anything forward. The phrase, "He's just not that into you" comes to mind a lot over the past two weeks or so. I'm not sure how to play this.. I guess I'll have to sit tight and wait it out. See what happens. It kind of sucks though. I get myself all giddy and silly about exchanging texts and emails, and find it hard to keep my cool and sit back. It's not my style. If it's in my head, I wear it on my sleeve. I have to put it out there. Ya only live once, right? Without risk and chances, why bother getting out of bed, right?
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