Tired

Yesterday evening I got the follow up phone call from the food stamp people to confirm my information and question me once again about whether or not I am really deserving enough to lower my eyes and stretch out my hands for a government hand out.  For the most part, it was a standard call.  The guy asked me to confirm mine and the boys' social security numbers, dates of birth, etc.  All very basic.  Then he asks about rent, and what I contribute for utilities etc.  This is where I started to squirm a little bit.  "I don't know, I give my Mom whatever I can at the end of the month.. If I have any extra money, I offer it to my Mom towards the bills..."   He hammered on a bit about details.. Finally, I dropped the formalities and was like, "look, at the end of  the month, IF I have any money left over, I give it to my Mom towards utilities and whatnot, but there's NEVER any money left!"  He said fine.  He asked how much I receive in support from my son's father.  I gave him an amount, but added that it is NOT a set amount, and that it varies from month to month..  Then he asked if I have any bank accounts.  I said "yes, a checking account."  and he asked me to estimate what my balance is on the account.   I .told him, "I can tell you exactly what the balance is because I checked it this afternoon, $41.06."  He asked me what the name of the bank was.  I told him my bank's name.  He countered with, "Well, I see here that your balance is $1441.06."  Me: "WHAAAAAAT? 

Mother fucker.  Of all the times to give me a deposit on time (or at least, when he said he would), that day of all days???  Come ON!  Now, mind you, his deposit is NOT anywhere near what it's supposed to be, OR what he "promised" it would be the other day.  So, I wound up looking like a liar on the phone to the Food Stamp interviewer.  That's just fabulous.

Tomorrow morning is the divorce hearing.  (Yay!)  I'm assuming he'll show up this time around since I gave him the brilliant idea that he ought to open his mail once in while.  I'm pretty excited about it.  I hope it goes easy and smoothly and can just be done with tomorrow.  However, considering how smoothly everything else goes for me, especially involving John, it's not likely.

You may recall that he PROMISED to sign over the entire monthly check to me before Christmas.  Well obviously, he didn't do that.  As he only gave me a fraction of the check once again this month.  So, hopefully that matter will be settled tomorrow too.

I looked at my college bill today.  Nearly $800!!!  And it's only for ONE class!  So, next stop is the financial aid office again to beg and plead for some kind of single mother grant or loan or something. 

And that's where I end my post today.  I'm exhausted and have to catch an early train in the morning.  After I ironed my outfit for court a few minutes ago, I folded up the ironing board, turned and opened the fridge and motioned like I was going to hang the board on the refrigerator door... as opposed to the back of the basement door.  Mama's gotta get some rest.