there ya have it

I'm so curious about who sent me the really  nice message about being more positive... I have to ask: 1. have you ever met me?  2. have you ever met me?  I am so happy to have nice comments to try to get me into a better frame of mind... but I still have to ask, Have you met me?  To ask me to NOT curse is just kind of silly.  and to tell me to be more positive is .... well.. wishfull thinking. I appreciate the thought, and the gesture.. but, sorry.  I reeeeeeeally want to get back into this blog.  I miss it terribly.. but If I am going to get back into it, it's gonna have to be on MY terms.  What turned me away from the blog was too  much negative feedback.  It stopped being a place to exhale, and became a place to placate to the masses.  I got a lot of comments directing me to stop being so dark and or negative... well kids, sorry, my current life is kinda dark and negative. not my my choosing, but it is what it is.  I'm not ashamed to say that a HUGE part of my post blogs come from a really dark unhappy place.